spring breaks

So usually I use Spring Break to catch up on things or to do things I want to but don't have time for. Not this time... I just want it to be what it is, a break.

I need a break, for a lot of reasons. I like being home sometimes and then I don't. I want to sleep. I love how quiet it is, except for the freaking birds in the morning.

My grandma is really sick and just got out of the hospital. We have to take care of her basically like a child. She can't get out of her chair and so we have to feed her through out the day, make sure she eats enough, uses her nebulizer every 6 hours, and takes her medicine. She doesn't look good to me but my mom says she looks great compared to a few weeks ago. I feel so bad for her and I can't imagine being left all alone all day, unable to walk and to see my cats, to wash my hair, to sew, or to do anything except watch old westerns.

I've watched two old westerns with her now. One twice because neither of us remembered if we finished it. It was a funny time for film making I think. Seeing the Native Americans is hilarious, the talk and expressions are funny, and seeing New Mexico as a cowboy haven is even funnier.

I think I'm going to run today. It's been too long. The air is clear here, and the town quiet.

I'll probably see Rosa sometime soon and Raquel this weekend. Otherwise, I hope to be still.